I know I should be warmly tugged in the blanket and vaguely lost
in the dream at this time but sleep is yet to knock on my eyes; past few months
have been hell of time (that’s what I felt) draining every energy out of me.
Nevertheless, every efforts paid me well wiping every tiredness and
complains and giving a reason to work even harder.
I was physically exhausted, literally worn out and completely
tested. I am blessed as many opportunities were showered to us and I am glad I
have followed my instinct to accomplish those (though my laziness was
constantly begging me to quit). At times I felt I couldn’t take anymore but I
realized, unlike labeled capacity bottle, we human beings have ‘will oriented
capacity’ which allows us to explore according to our willingness to the
farthest and accommodate all and still have space for some more. The choice
depend on us whether to confine ourselves in the presumed capacity or to
explore all the possibilities.
“Grades
are not primary things if you have really learned and understood something.”
Sir Tshewang often used to remind us in Design Concrete Structure class but I
would always remind myself that ‘marks are passport of life’. True to his
words, learning doesn’t have to be necessarily graded or must be within the
class. If learning is the cone of the life then understanding is a cream of the
life. Never grade yourself with those reflected in black and white. First work
with all your heart and grade your honesty and sincerity.
Am I
getting little philosophical? Blame the rupturing of the accumulated
excitement I have suppressed for a long time to go home or the apprehensiveness
over the final compilation and submission of the work which is scheduled today
:D
I better sleep :)