Friday, May 2, 2014

We Chose to Tell You

“O poor, unthinking human heart! The error will not go away; logic and reason are slow to penetrate. We cling with both arms to false hope, refusing to believe the weightiest proofs against it, embracing it with all our strength. In the end it escapes, ripping our veins and draining our heart’s blood; until, regaining consciousness, we rush to fall into snares of delusion all over again.” Rabindranth Tagore (from ‘The Postmaster’).

‘Should we tell her or not?’ the violent battle in our mind robs the every piece of peace we had. She will be hurt beyond words if we do, but at least she will know the truth. Initial hurt will eventually subsidize with the time, but fearing the hurt she has to endure with shattering truth, we chose to keep the cat safely in the bag. But masking the truth will also hurt her ultimately when she finds out, she had enough betrayal from the loved one and we can’t let her believe the world isn’t worth trusting. Somewhere down the line there is always somebody who cares about someone. She is not a subject of deception and betrayal. There is a fire on both sides; one end with the devastating truth and beautiful nonexistent fairy castle she built at the other end.

Last time we made a mistake of hiding truth from her, she was more hurt not with the truth, but the fact that we choose to hide from her. If last one was gunfire this time is an atom bomb that will blow her faith completely. She was wounded and sank into a different world of isolation earlier. We had to tell her this time and we promised to stand by her side.

After spilling every truth with the little courage we had, she scanned our faces and smiled weakly. She said it makes sense as there was a connection between what she knew and what we told. She asked when we knew about the truth. Honestly, we said "recently". I said that good things come to an end so better things can take place.

After soaking into a momentary silence, she asked “Does anyone have a very sad movie? I want to watch tonight.” breaking a silence with laughter.
We joined her and were glad that she took it positively like always. She is our rare and brave girl. You have a way to go dear and I know you will be reading it, so want to let you know that we love you beyond words. I could tell you in person, but you know how bad I am with the words, I will freakishly lend up blurting nonsense and stupid.


I wonder, did we do the right thing by telling you? We did what we thought was best for you, but guilt plays a prominent role when you transits into a world of silence. 

4 comments:

  1. That was the best thing you all have done to her and she now has the reason to let go things not meant for her. and she surely would want to watch that sad movie...:)

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    1. Hope we did right things, finger crossed. And I won't let her watch that sad movie alone ;)

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  2. That was dilemma that I faced too and took me some time to think whether to tell or not. However, not everyone would appreciate the effort you made.

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    1. I honestly couldn't live by hiding the over bearing secrets from her. I relieved myself but transmitted painful truth to her. I am still wondering whether I did right things or not *guilty conscience*

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